So I know I shouldn't say it isn't running by putting it in quotations, but it barely feels like I am running. I need to remember what I tell other people who just started to run, something I read somewhere "As long as you aren't walking, you are running." Granted I have only ran twice since taking a break to try to recover. I had started to get better, then out of nowhere (well, actually around the time that I had back to back house guests and my husband got hurt mountain biking and needed surgery) my leg started to hurt again. After talking with some people and confronting some of my own issues, I think I was being a wuss. Running isn't always going to be pain free. I can treat AND train. I am no longer training for the Iron Girl. Financial stuff and feeling like it would be a waste to do it have led me to that decision. I still may change my mind, but need to give it another week. I won't have my name on the bib but worse things have happened. If I were to do it I would either walk it with some friends, or run the 5K and try like hell to beat all my previous 5K times. We shall see though.
Running is changing for me. As well as changing me. I feel as though I am constantly on the verge of some big change, although this feeling itself is not new. I have felt this way for MANY years. But regardless, I feel like running pushes me towards this change more than most things in my life, save my wonderful therapist. She's good.
OK, since early morning (like now) and late nights are not the greatest times for me to formulate clear thoughts I will be off.
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