Not quite enough

So it's probably really immature of me but this recent feeling of "not quite enough" actually has been going on for a while. Not quite a good enough person (mother/wife/sister/daughter/friend). Not enough to really mean something, or mean enough. But what does enough really mean? So I looked it up online and here is what I found:

e·nough
–adjective
1. adequate for the want or need; sufficient for the purpose or to satisfy desire: enough water; noise enough to wake the dead.
–pronoun
2. an adequate quantity or number; sufficiency.
–adverb
3. in a quantity or degree that answers a purpose or satisfies a need or desire; sufficiently.
4. fully or quite: ready enough.
–interjection
5. (used to express impatience or exasperation): Enough! I heard you the first time.


I think the last part is kind of funny. I have found myself saying that phrase to Jetta a lot recently. In my reoccurring fits of impatience with her normal toddler behavior I have told her that I heard her the first 12 times.

To an extreme degree I feel like I'm not quite stable enough to be in charge of what I am in charge of. I have to say I do blame a lot of this on the fact that it's winter, I have normal depression along with bad S.A.D. (Seasonal Affective Disorder), and I haven't taken Vitamin D in a long time. But regardless of all this, I do not feel sufficient in a lot right now, if anything at all.

So yeah, there's my rant for today. Thanks for listening. I don't feel like the super negative, always complaining friend when I just send it out to the internet.